Before I started testosterone (T) I rarely got complimented on my voice. Now, it’s one of the first things people take note of and comment on. I’ve heard from many different people since starting T that I should guide a yoga practice or meditation. I always loved the idea. Yoga has grounded me in many seasons of life when my emotions felt too big for words or my body. While I haven’t done as much mindful meditations, the scattered moments with friends, strangers, or solo, always bring up soothing memories. I recorded this meditation wanting to tap into the same sacredness I’ve felt during those moments of unrest. 

I tried to write exactly what I was going to say and record after. I listened to some of my favorite meditations thinking I would be inspired. I even put on tranquil sounds, hoping they would stir up the right words when I put pen to paper. None of that worked. I had to pause. I couldn’t force a message. 

Truthfully, I closed my eyes and pulled from my old spiritual direction toolbox: when I was training to become a spiritual director we learned how to cultivate spaciousness with rhythms of silence. I listened deeply and quietly and these are the words I spoke.

This recording is my offering, my spiritual download, my challenges, my dreams. I hope this guided meditation can be of service to anyone searching for a moment to feel the fullness of their humanity.

With love,

Jasmine / JC

Listen to the meditation here:

Transcript (ish):

Hello, my name is Jasmine and this is my voice. My voice has changed a lot in the last couple of years. My life has changed a lot in the last couple of years. I’m sure you have witnessed a lot of change in the last couple of years. I’m here now to accompany you in a moment of reflection, stillness, and heart opening acceptance.

Together I hope we can find a moment of comfort and a practice to return to when we’re in need of connection. My goal with this recording is to remind each and one of you of the infinite possibilities that lay ahead, of the dreams that we can bring into reality, and the powerful forces that guide and protect us.

now if you can take a moment to get comfortable ease into your space and prepare your mind, body and spirit encounter something new with intention. let’s take a deep breath and exhale. Let’s take one more. We breathe in together and exhale drawing out our breath feeling our life source, causing to be with something so natural and to give it a bit more of attention today to notice it a bit deeper today 

as you continue to breathe and find more spaciousness in your surroundings I am going to ask some reflective questions

let's begin with one hand over her heart, and another hand on her belly, feel the steady beat of your heart. Notice the speed & notice the sensation 

is your heart heavy? are you weary? Do you feel a fire in your stomach? what is emboldening your righteous rage?

settle deeper into your body as you look within to understand what's happening outside of you. 

When was the last time you closed your eyes and rested like this? When was the last time you had a deep belly laugh? When was the last time you cried and felt a fear that felt unspeakable? Where do you go when you need love? who's there to hug you? Where do you go to organize? What fight are you fighting each and every day? 

As you reflected on these questions Continue to check in with your body. Adjust as you need. 

What would it mean to follow your bodies instructions? How can you grow in deeper connection and curiosity with yourself?

let's take another deep breath and feel the air expanding in your lungs blowing out a gust of wind, like a breeze surrounding your skin. 

Where is your happy place? Who's there? When was the last time you visited? 

Continue to stretch and twist or turn in whatever direction you're feeling pulled in make time to breathe and pause as you process and grow closer to your answers.

 if you feel called to gently sway your body from side to side let the rocking motion soothe you and don't forget to be playful, you can move as fast as you want as slow as you need. You can add your arms or even your legs as you follow the natural rhythm and curves that your body wants to expresses. 

I'll say a few affirmations now to guide us in our closing.

 I embody the love that I seek.

I am committed to my life and my dreams. 

I know the systems working against me will not prevail. 

I trust the wisdom of the world to sustain and support me. 

I am brave, even when I'm afraid.

the world that I'm working to build is working with me.

I will have a community.

I already have a community.

I am touched & informed by every experience, good or bad. 

I release the shame.

I release shame.

I will fight for the people and things that I believe in.

I am determined to win those fights. 

I will care for myself as I care for others. 

I am grounded in my beliefs.

I'm proud of who I am and who I'm becoming.

Grace is all I ask for.

I am grateful even in this stage of life.

 if you haven't already please bow your head or close your eyes as we come to the end of the guided meditation.

 change and transformation is inevitable.

I will not turn my back to it even in times of uncertainty.

even when I lack clarity, even when all I feel is instability, I will continue.

And with that you can open your eyes.

thank you for listening for reflecting for speaking for being. I wish you wellness and whenever you feel call to return to this recording. I hope that you follow your intuition.